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# CHAPTER II
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My mother, my brother, and the media have portrayed me as
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socially isolated to an abnormal degree from earliest
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childhood. For example, shortly after my arrest, *Time*
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reported: "Investigators were told that in childhood Ted
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seemed to avoid human contact." ¹
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According to Investigator #1's interview with my mother,
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"As he grew older (age 2-4) Wanda spent a great deal of
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time attempting to get Ted to play with other kids, mostly
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without success. Friends and relatives always told her Ted
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was too clingy, so she attempted to encourage his
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interaction with other children. She would invite children
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from the neighborhood over to play, only to have Ted leave
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the group and go to his room to play alone. She said he
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always managed to have one friend at a time, but would
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rebuff the attempts of friendship from all other children.
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Wanda also took Ted to a play school for children for an
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hour or so each week so that he could play with other kids.
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Ted didn't mind going, but would play alongside the other
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children instead of with them. Ted would get angry if
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another child tried to join or interfered with what he was
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doing. Ted went to preschool and kindergarten, and seemed to
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enjoy it. The teachers did not complain about his behavior,
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but did mention Ted always wanted to work on projects alone,
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and did not interact with other children." ²
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The *Washington Post* told a similar tale on the basis of an
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interview with my mother. ³
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Here again the documentary evidence shows that my mother is
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lying. I will not try the reader's patience by addressing
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all of her false statements, but will stick to the essential
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point, that my interaction with other children was normal
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until, at about the age of 11, I began to have serious
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social problems for reasons that will be made clear later.
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According to the pediatricians who examined me:
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"April 4, 1945... Plays well with other children. ..."
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"May 18, 1950... Healthy boy. Well adjusted. ..."
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"May 8, 1951... Plays well with children in school and
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neighborhood. Very happy." ⁴
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The doctors could have obtained this information about my
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social adjustment only from my mother. It was always she,
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and not my father, who took me to my examinations at the
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University of Chicago clinics.
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Thus, statements of my mother's that were recorded during
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my childhood clearly contradict her recent statements
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concerning my early social development. If she wasn't lying
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then, she is lying now. Either way, the record shows her to
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be a liar.
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What then is the truth concerning my social adjustment in
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early childhood? My mother's reports to doctors carry
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little weight because, as we will show later, she often did
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lie in order to present a favorable picture of me to persons
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outside the immediate family. But since the Baby Book was
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private there is no particular reason to doubt the
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statements she made there that show that I was not socially
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withdrawn.
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It's true that at one point in the Baby Book my mother
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indicated I was somewhat shy, ⁵ as noted in Chapter I, and
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I myself have a vague memory of being a little shy up to the
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age of five or so. Furthermore, I wrote in my 1959
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autobiography:
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"As far as I can remember, I have always been socially
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reserved, and used to be rather unpleasantly conscious of
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the fact. For example, I remember that when I was very
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little, 3 or 4 years old, I was very concerned over the fact
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that when my mother bought me an ice cream cone, I was
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always afraid to take it directly from the lady's hand; my
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mother had to take it from her and give it to me. Eventually
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I overcame this. ...
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"I learned to whistle and to swim later than most of my
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companions,\[text unknown\] did learn to skate. And it
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often bothered me that I was less socially active than the
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rest of the boys, which I think was partly due to shyness
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and partly due to a certain lack of interest in some of
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their activities. I've always kept to myself a lot." ⁶
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The second paragraph of this passage evidently applies not
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to my earliest years but to a much later period when I did
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indeed have social problems. As a result of these problems I
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began to take a perverse pride in being unsocial, and this
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is probably what led me to imply (as I did in the first
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paragraph above) that I was "socially reserved" even in my
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earliest years.
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But even if that first paragraph is taken at face value,
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there is plenty of evidence to show that my social
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interaction with other children was easily within the normal
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range until my real problems began in early adolescence. As
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we saw in Chapter I, my mother indicated in the Baby Book
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that at the age of one year I was consistently friendly to
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other children:
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"*Is he usually shy or friendly with strange women*? either
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*men*? either *children*? friendly... ." ⁵
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From age one to three I developed a close friendship with
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Adam Ks., a boy about eight months older than I was. The
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attachment left a long-lasting impression on both of us. He
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was the son of the couple who occupied the first floor of
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the house of which my parents and I had the second story;
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when we moved to another house I was separated from him. ⁷
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In the new house we again occupied the second story, and
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with the little girl downstairs, Barbara P., I formed
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another strong attachment, ⁸ though it was not as strong
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as my attachment to Adam. During this same period (age 3 to
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4) I had at least one other frequent playmate, whose name,
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if I remember correctly, was Jackie. ⁹
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Shortly before my fifth birthday we moved to a house on
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Carpenter Street (the first house that my parents owned),
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¹⁰ and from that time until I entered Harvard I always had
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several friends. My friends on Carpenter Street included
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Johnny Kr., Bobby Th., Freddie Do., Jimmy Bu., Larry La.,
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and Mary Kay Fy. ¹¹ As long as we lived on Carpenter
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Street, I attended Sherman School, a unit of the Chicago
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public-school system. All of my friends on Carpenter Street
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either attended the Catholic school or were a year older
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than I was, so that they were in a different grade.
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Consequently my school friends were not the same as those
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with whom I played near home. My school friends included
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Frank Ho., Terry La C., Rosario (an Italian kid whose last
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name I do not remember) and Peter Ma. ¹²
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I not only had friends but, on a few occasions, exercised
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leadership. For example, I once came up with the idea of
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putting on a "carnival," as we called it. I persuaded
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Johnny Kr. and Bobby Th. to help me arrange games and simple
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entertainments, and after advertising the event by word of
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mouth for several days we made up tickets by hand, sold them
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to neighborhood kids, and made a modest profit. ¹³
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Thus there is no truth in my mother's portrayal of me as
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abnormally solitary from early childhood. There was no need
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for her to "invite children from the neighborhood over to
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play," ¹⁴ nor did she ever do so during these years as
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far as I can remember.
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The first indication of any significant social difficulties
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on my part came when I was perhaps eight or nine years old,
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¹⁵ and it very likely resulted from the fact that our
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family was different from its neighbors. My father worked
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with his hands all his life; my mother, apart from teaching
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high school English for two years during her fifties, never
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did anything more demanding than lower-level secretarial
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work; and our family always lived among working-class and
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lower-middle class people. Yet my parents always regarded
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themselves as a cut above their neighbors. They had
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intellectual pretensions, and though their own intellectual
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attainments were extremely modest, to say the least, they -
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especially my mother - looked down on their neighbors as
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"ignorant." (But they were usually careful not to reveal
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their snobbish attitudes outside the family.) ¹⁶
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Our block of Carpenter Street was part of a working-class
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neighborhood that was just one step above the slums. As my
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playmates grew older, some of them began engaging in behavior
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that approached or crossed the line dividing acceptable
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childhood mischief from delinquency. ¹⁷ For example, two of
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them got into trouble for trying to set fire to someone's
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garage. ¹⁵ I had been trained to a much more exacting
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standard of behavior and wouldn't participate in the other
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kids' mischief. ¹⁸ Once, for instance, I was with a bunch
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of neighborhood kids who waited in ambush for an old
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rag-picker, pelted him with garbage when he came past, and
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then ran away. I stood back in the rear and refused to
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participate, and immediately afterward I went home and told
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my mother what had happened, because I was shocked at such
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disrespect being shown to an adult - even if he was only a
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rag-picker. ¹⁹
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So it may be that the reason why I ceased to be fully
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accepted by my Carpenter-Street playmates at around the age
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of eight or nine was that they saw me as too much of a
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"good boy." In any case they did seem to lose interest in
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my companionship - I was no longer one of the bunch. ²⁰ I
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continued to get along well with the kids in school. ²¹
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Unlike the kids on my block they showed no tendency to
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serious mischief, either because they were better-behaved
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kids or because the supervised environment of school left
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few opportunities for misbehavior.
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My parents noticed the fact that I was becoming isolated
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from my Carpenter-Street friends, and they repeatedly
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expressed to me their concern that there might be something
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wrong with me because I was not social enough. ¹⁵ To me it
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was acutely humiliating to be pushed out to the fringe by
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these kids with whom I had formerly associated on an equal
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basis, and I was too ashamed to tell my parents what was
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really happening, or even to admit it to myself until many
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years later. My mother invented an explanation for my
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isolation that was consistent with her intellectual
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pretensions: I wasn't playing with the other kids because I
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was so much smarter than they were that they bored me. This
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was absurd. I was bored with the other kids when (as often
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happened) they moped around aimlessly rather than pursuing
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some activity, but there can be no doubt that I wanted to
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continue playing with them and was deeply hurt by the fact
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that I was no longer fully accepted. Yet, because my
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mother's explanation soothed my vanity, I half-believed it
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myself. In a very brief (one and a quarter-page)
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autobiographical sketch that I wrote at the age of fifteen,
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I said:
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"Beginning in the second or third grade I began to become
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somewhat unsocial, keeping to myself and seeking the
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companionship of my comrades less often. This was probably
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due, in part, to the level of education and culture in my
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old neighborhood, where no one was interested in science,
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art, or books." ²²
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Actually, I wasn't so terribly interested in science, art,
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or books myself. The autobiographical sketch was part of an
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application for admission to Harvard and therefore was
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written under the close supervision of my mother. Rereading
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it now I feel almost certain that the first paragraph of it
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was actually composed by her. That paragraph is written in a
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kind of language that I rarely use now and that I can hardly
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imagine myself having used at the age of fifteen; but it's
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just the sort of thing that my mother would write. ²³
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I'm quite sure that my partial isolation from the
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Carpenter-Street kids did not begin before I was eight, at
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the earliest, and that I had no serious problems with the
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kids in school at the time. Yet the sketch refers to "the
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second or third grade," which would make me seven or eight
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years old. Possibly my mother's hand is seen here too.
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Notwithstanding all of the foregoing, I think my parents had
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an inkling of the fact that the bad behavior of the other
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kids had something to do with my isolation. Not long after
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my tenth birthday we moved to Evergreen Park, a suburb of
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Chicago, and my mother told me many years later that she and
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my father had decided to move mainly so that I "would have
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some decent kids to play with." Though my mother is hardly
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a reliable source of information, her statement is probably
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true in part; yet it's likely that there were also other
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reasons for the move. Not far from where we lived, a case
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of "block-busting" ²⁴ gave rise to some very serious
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race-riots that were essentially territorial conflicts
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between the black and the white working class. All white
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householders in the area were put under pressure to place in
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their windows a small sign saying, "This property is not
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for sale," which was intended as a show of white solidarity
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against black "intrusion." My parents had very liberal
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attitudes about race and felt that it was against their
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principles to put up such a sign. But they received a
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threat, and, fearing that I might be attacked on my way to
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school, they gave in and placed the sign. ²⁵ This was
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extremely upsetting to them and it must have contributed to
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their decision to move out to the suburbs.
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Meanwhile, when I was a bit less than seven-and-a-half years
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old, I had acquired a baby brother. My brother David for
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many years has argued that I unconsciously hate him because
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the attention that my parents devoted to him on his arrival
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made me feel deprived of their affection. ²⁶
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The *New York Times* quoted my aunt Josephine Manney, née
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Kaczynski, as follows:
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" 'Before David was born, Teddy was different,' the aunt
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said. 'When they'd visit he'd snuggle up to me. Then, when
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David was born, something must have happened. He changed
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immediately. Maybe we paid too much attention to the new
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baby.' " ²⁷
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Little did my aunt Josephine know the *real* reason why I
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stopped snuggling up to her! I'll explain in a moment. But
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first let me make it clear that I'd never heard anything of
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this sort from Josephine before I read the *New York Times*
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article, and it's evident that my brother never heard it
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either, since, in our discussions of his theory about my
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reaction to his birth, he never mentioned any such statement
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on the part of our aunt; nor did he ever cite any other
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rational evidence in support of his theory. The theory,
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apparently, grew entirely out of his own imagination.
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As to the real reason why I stopped snuggling up to my aunt:
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Josephine was a good-looking woman; though she was over
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forty at the time of my brother's birth, she'd kept herself
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in shape and was still attractive. I don't know whether it
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was normal or precocious, but by the age of about seven I
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already had a fairly strong interest in the female body. ²⁸
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Not long after my brother's birth, my family and I visited
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the apartment where Josephine lived with her mother (my
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paternal grandmother). My aunt and I were sitting on a
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couch, and, attracted by her breasts, I slid over against
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her, put my arm over her shoulder, and said, "Let's play
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girlfriend." Josephine laughed and put her arm around me,
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and I had the decided satisfaction of feeling her breast
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against my body. My aunt just thought it was cute, but my
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mother was sharp enough to see what was really going on.
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After a short interval she said, "I think I'll go to the
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store and get some ice cream" (or maybe it was candy or
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something else), and she invited me to come with her. I
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declined, but she insisted that I should come. As soon as
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she got me out of the house she gave me a tongue-lashing and
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a lecture on appropriate behavior with ladies. It will not
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surprise the reader that, from then on, I kept my distance
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from Josephine.
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To return to my brother's theory that I resented his
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arrival in the family: He first indicated his suspicion that
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I unconsciously hated him in a letter to me written some
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time during the summer of 1982. That letter has not been
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preserved, but there is a reference to it in a letter that I
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sent to my brother in 1986. I wrote: "I recall that a few
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years ago you said you had feared that I had (as you put it)
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a hatred for you so great that even I was unable to
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acknowledge it." ²⁹
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In a letter that he wrote to me in 1986, my brother
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expounded his theory as follows:
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"You should have hated me, in that as a new baby in the
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family, the new locus of affection, I should have awakened
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your fears of abandonment. \[My brother is referring here
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to the alleged "fear of abandonment" that I was supposed
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to have as a result of "that hospital experience."\] The
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parents tell me that just the opposite was true, that you
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were extremely affectionate toward me and that you didn't
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show any jealousy whatsoever. I have thought of a way to fit
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this in, by recourse to the Freudian theory of 'Denial.'
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When you saw the murdered babies in the Nazi camp, it might
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have awakened your horror as a secret wish fulfillment in
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respect to me. \[My brother is referring here to a dream
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that I once had about him, concerning which I will have more
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to say shortly.\] When you vowed to protect me at the
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expense of your own life, perhaps the one you vowed to
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protect me from was *yourself*, I have no idea how much or
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little truth there may be in this interpretation." ³⁰
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The disclaimer in the last sentence is perhaps disingenuous,
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as my brother has clung to the theory persistently over the
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years. According to the *New York Times*, "David said his
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mother told him that she gradually encouraged Ted to hold
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him and that 'from that time forward, he showed a great
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deal of gentleness toward me.' " ³¹ The implication,
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that I had resented him at first, is contradicted by my
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brother's own statement, quoted above, that "\[t\]he
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parents tell me that... you were extremely affectionate
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toward me and that you didn't show any jealousy
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whatsoever." It is also contradicted by a statement of my
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mother's: "Ted seemed to easily accept having a brother in
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the house, and liked to hold David when he was a baby." ²
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As I remember it, prior to my brother's birth my parents
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told me repeatedly that the new baby, when it came, would
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require a great deal of care and attention, and that I must
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not feel that my parents loved me any less because they were
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devoting so much time to the baby. When David was born I
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wondered why my parents had put so much emphasis on this
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point, because I by no means felt left out or deprived of
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attention. As I wrote in my 1979 autobiography:
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"My brother David was born when I was 7½. I considered this
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a pleasant event. I was interested in the baby and enjoyed
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being allowed to hold it. ...
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"One reads much about 'sibling rivalry' - the older child
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supposedly resents the new baby because he feels it has
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robbed him of his parents' affection. I do not recall ever
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having had any such feeling about my baby brother. ... I
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think my parents were aware of the problem of 'sibling
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rivalry' and made a conscious effort to avoid this problem
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when the new baby came ." ³²
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In those years my parents and I got all our medical care at
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the University of Chicago teaching hospitals, which were
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among the finest in America, and the doctors no doubt had
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talked to my parents about the way to handle my relationship
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with my new brother.
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Why then does my brother think that I have an intense,
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unconscious hatred for him? People often attribute their own
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motives and impulses (including unconscious ones) to other
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people. Further on in this book we will show that my brother
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has a hatred for me that he has not acknowledged - probably
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not even to himself. At the same time he has a strong
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affection for me, and it appears that he has never faced up
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to the profound conflict between his love and his hatred. My
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brother habitually retreats from conflicts rather than
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struggling with them.
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My feelings toward my brother in his infancy are well
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illustrated by a dream that I described to him in a letter
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that I sent him during the summer of 1982. After making some
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highly critical comments about his character, I wrote:
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"I am going to open to you the window to my soul as I would
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not open it to anyone else, by telling you two dreams that
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I've had about you. The first dream is simple. It is one I
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had more than thirty years ago, when I was maybe 7 or 8
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years old and you were still a baby in your crib. Some time
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before, I had seen pictures of starving children in Europe
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taken shortly after world war II - they were emaciated, with
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arms like sticks, ribs protruding, and guts hanging out.
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Well, I dreamed that there was a war in America and I saw
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you as one of these children, emaciated and starving. It
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affected me strongly and when I woke up I made up my mind
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that if there was ever a war in America I would do
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everything I possibly could to protect you. This illustrates
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the semi-maternal tenderness that I've often felt for you."
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³³
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In reply to the foregoing letter my brother wrote to me
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expressing his gratitude for the affection I had expressed,
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and for the fact that I "cared for \[him\] more than anyone
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else ever had." He then added the remark mentioned
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earlier - that until then he had feared that I had a
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hatred for him so great that I could not acknowledge it. ³⁴
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I referred to this letter of my brother's in a note that I
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wrote him in September, 1982:
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"I received your last letter and note that it shows your
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usual generosity of character. Instead of being sore over
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the negative parts of my attitude toward you, you were
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favorably impressed by the positive parts." ³⁵
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My brother does have a good deal of generosity in his
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character, but I now think that the nature of his reaction
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to my letter was less a result of generosity than of his
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tendency to retreat from conflict.
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Not long after my brother's birth my mother's personality
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began to change. The cause may have been post-partum
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depression, a hormonal imbalance brought about by her
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pregnancy, or something else, but, whatever the reason, she
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began to grow increasingly irritable. ³⁶ The symptoms were
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relatively mild at first, but they worsened over the next
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several years so that, by the time I reached my teens, she
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was having frequent outbursts of rage that express
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themselves as unrestrained verbal aggression, sometimes
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accompanied by minor physical aggression ³⁷ (though never
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enough of the latter to do any physical harm).
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The change in my mother's personality affected my father
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and brought about a gradual deterioration of the family
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atmosphere. I described this in a 1986 letter to my brother:
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"You don't realize that the atmosphere in our home was
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quite different during the first few years of my life than
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it was later. You know how it was during my teens - people
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always squabbling, mother crabby and irritable, Dad morosely
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passive. Too much ice cream, candy, and treats, parents fat
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and self-indulgent. A generally *low-morale* atmosphere. But
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it was very different up to the time when I was, say, 8 or 9
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years old. Until then, the home atmosphere was cheerful,
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there was hardly any quarrelling, and there was a generally
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*high-morale* atmosphere. Ice cream and candy were
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relatively infrequent treats and were consumed in moderation
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... . Our parents were more alive and energetic. When
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punishment was necessary it was given with little or no
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anger and was used as a more-or-less rational means of
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training; whereas during my teens, when I was punished it
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was commonly an expression of anger or irritation on the
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part of our parents. Consequently this punishment was
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*humiliating*. The more-or-less rational punishment of the
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early years was not humiliating." ³⁸
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## NOTES TO CHAPTER II
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1. (Hg) *Time*, April 22, 1996, p. 46.
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2. (Ka) Interview of Wanda by Investigator #1, p. 2.
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3. (Hb) *Washington Post*, June 16, 1996.
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4. (Ea) Med Records of TJK, U. Chi.; April 4, 1945, p. 26;
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May 18, 1950, p. 51; May 8, 1951, p. 51.
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5. (Bc) Baby Book, p. 122.
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6. (Ab) Autobiog of TJK 1959, p. 2.
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7. (Bc) Baby Book, pp. 113, 115; (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979,
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pp. 1, 2. In (Qb) Written Investigator Report #68, Adam Ks.
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himself confirms the strength of this friendship. However,
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much of the information he gives is incorrect.
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8. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, p. 3.
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9. Jackie was the four-year-old boy referred to on p. 1
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of (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979.
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10. (Ab) Autobiog of TJK 1959, p. 2; (Ac) Autobiog of TJK
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1979, p. 5; (Ga) Deed #1.
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11. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 5, 6, 10, 11, mentions
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all these friends by name.
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12. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 6-8 describes my
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relations with Frank Ho., Terry La C., and Rosario. My
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friendship with Peter Ma. is not documented.
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13. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 10, 11.
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14. (Ka) Interview of Wanda by Investigator #1, p. 2.
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15. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, p. 12.
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16. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 17, 24, 79; (Na) FBI 302
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number 2, p. 6.
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17. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 12, 194.
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18. (Ab) Autobiog of TJK 1959, p. 3; (Ac) Autobiog of TJK
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1979, pp. 12-14, 16, 17, 194; (Ca) FL#458, letter from me
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to my mother, July 5, 1991, pp. 9, 10.
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19. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, p. 194; (Ca) FL#458, letter
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from me to my mother, July 5, 1991, pp. 9, 10.
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"Rag-pickers" were very poor people who made their living,
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such as it was, by picking through trash to find anything
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that could be sold as scrap.
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20. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, p. 12; (Ca) FL#458, letter
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from me to my mother, July 5, 1991, p. 9.
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21. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, p. 12; (Ca) FL#458, letter
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from me to my mother, July 5, 1991, p. 10.
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22. (Aa) Autobiog of TJK 1958. When, in (Ab) Autobiog of TJK
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1959, p. 2, I wrote, "I was less socially active than the
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rest of the boys,... partly due to shyness and partly
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due to a certain lack of interest in their activities," I
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probably was still under the influence of my mother's
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theory that I was bored with other kids because I was
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smarter.
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23. The first paragraph of this document ((Aa) Autobiog of
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TJK 1958) reads:
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"My first vague memories are of a golden age of blessed
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irresponsibility. But the grass is always greener on the
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other side of the fence, and I suppose at that time I looked
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forward to the unbounded joys of growing up."
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24. "Block-busting" was a practice whereby unscrupulous
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realtors would contrive to sell to black people a house on a
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white-occupied block near black territory. White
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householders on the block, fearing that they would be left
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isolated in the midst of a black neighborhood, sold off
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their property as quickly as possible. Thus the realtors
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were able to buy houses from whites at reduced prices and
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sell them again to black families at inflated prices.
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25. This account of the placement of the sign is based in
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part on what I myself observed at the time, but also in part
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on what my mother told me many years later. Given my
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mother's unreliability, it cannot be assumed that the
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account is strictly accurate.
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26. (Ha) *NY Times Nat*., May 26, 1996, p. 22, column 3;
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(Ca) FL #330, letter from David Kaczynski to me, March or
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April, 1986, p. 14; (Ca) FL#331, letter from me to David
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Kaczynski, April 16, 1986, pp. 3, 4.
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27. (Ha) *NY Times Nat*., May 26, 1996, p. 22, column 3. The
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*Times* quoted only an "aunt" who preferred to remain
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anonymous, but the aunt in question is obviously Josephine.
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I have just four living aunts: Sylvia, Madeline (aunts by
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marriage), Freda, and Josephine. Sylvia married my uncle
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Benny when I was in my teens, and I'd never met her before
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that time; I was never chummy enough with Madeline to
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"snuggle up" to her; and Freda informed me in (Cb) FL
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Supplementary item #6, letter from Freda Tuominen to me,
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July 20, 1996, that she was not the unnamed aunt quoted by
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the *Times* (which I already knew from the content of the
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quotations). So that leaves Josephine.
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28. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 11, 20.
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29. (Ca) FL #331, letter from me to David Kaczynski, April
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16, 1986, p. 4.
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30. (Ca) FL #330, letter from David Kaczynski to the author,
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March or April, 1986, p. 14.
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31. (Ha) *NY Times Nat.*, May 26, 1996, p. 22, column 3. In
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this same column we find:
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"David said his parents told him about how his father,
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grandmother and Teddy had gone to the hospital after his
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birth. ... 'So my father and grandmother left Ted in the
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lobby and went up to visit me,' he said, 'When they all
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went down to the lobby... he was sitting there alone in
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tears and very deeply upset.'" I don't remember any such
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incident, and I doubt that it happened. My brother is very
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prone to get his facts garbled.
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32. (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 17,18.
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33. (Ca) FL #266, letter from me to David Kaczynski, Summer,
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1982, pp. 5, 6. I described the dream in nearly identical
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terms in (Ac) Autobiog of TJK 1979, pp. 17, 18, and added
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that "I felt a sense of pity and love toward my
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brother... ."
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Characteristically, my brother got the dream garbled in
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the 1986 letter of his that we quoted a few pages back:
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"When you saw the murdered babies in the Nazi camp... When
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you vowed to protect me at the expense of your own
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life... ." (See Note 30 above.) Compare this with the
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correct account of the dream. Later we will see other
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instances in which my brother has gotten his facts garbled.
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34. This letter has not been preserved, and I am
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relying here on memory and on the 1986 letter in which I
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mentioned the remark about "great hatred." See Note 29
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above.
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35. (Ca) FL #271, letter from me to David Kaczynski,
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September, 1982, p. 2.
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36. (Ca) FL #458, letter from me to my mother, July 5, 1991,
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p. 9. (Ca) FL #423, letter from me to my mother, January 15,
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1991, pp. 4, 5: "I always felt you were a good mother to me
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during my early years. It was when I was around 8 years old
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that your behavior and the family atmosphere began to
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deteriorate, and it was during my teens that I was subjected
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to constant, cutting insults such as imputations of
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immaturity or mental illness." My Xerox copy of the copy of
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this letter that I mailed to my mother is illegible in
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places. Therefore, for one line of the foregoing quotation I
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had to refer to p. 2 of the copy of this letter that I kept
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in my cabin.
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37. Example of minor physical aggression is given in (Ac)
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Autobiog of TJK 1979, p. 47 (throwing saucepan).
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38. (Ca) FL #339, letter from me to David Kaczynski, May,
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1986, pp. 3, 4. A similar account is given in (Ac) Autobiog
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of TJK 1979, pp. 38, 39. For confirmation see (Ca) FL#458,
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letter from me to my mother, July 5, 1991, p. 9. (Ab)
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Autobiog of TJK 1959, p. 5, has: "My relationship with my
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parents used to be generally affectionate, but the last few
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years it has deteriorated considerably... ."
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